CRABBE, dahlia alyzabeth

[DAHLIA ALYZABETH CRABBE]

Dahlia Alyzabeth Crabbe
"Go ahead and sell me out and I'll lay your shit bare. See how I
leave with every piece of you. Don't underestimate the things
that I will do. There's a fire starting in my heart, reaching a
fever pitch and it's bringing me out the dark."

INTRODUCTION --

"hello. can i help you with something? because, if you're just going to waste my time, then this conversation is going to end now. i have to tell you the things you want to know? i've never been in a position where i didn't have a choice, but fine. this better not take long. my name is dahlia alyzabeth crabbe. yes, my father is vincent crabbe. one of draco's best friends, but that's not what's important right? right. i'm sixteen years old born on december eighteenth, which puts me in my sixth year at hogwarts. the downside to this story, is i was sorted into gryffindor. i'm a disappointment. i could tell when i got a letter back from my parents after telling them. i'm the only child in my family, no scratch that. i'm the only one in my family that is not in slytherin, and i suppose i know the reason why, which i'll get to later, but i still don't like it. i would much rather be with my friends. i'm pretty sure they're even thinking i'm a disgrace, though they don't tell me. i guess it's a good thing i'm a pureblood then. it still gives me a small amount of status around here, aside from the fact i hand with the big leagues. don't tell anyone this, but gryffindor really isn't that bad, i'm just expected to hate it because i should have been in slytherin."

PERSONALITY --

"now we're getting to the good stuff, right? the person on the inside. point blank, i'm pretty much fake. the way i act, is not how i wish to act. honestly, i just want to help people and make friends. i just want to be a normal girl, who is popular because people like me for me and not because they fear me, but no, that's not how it is at all. i'm mean and judgemental. i treat people wrong, because it's how i was raised, and how my friends expect me to act. ever since i was put in gryffindor, i've felt like i need to make up for that. i have to go above and beyond just so my friends don't hate me. i know you should always be true to who you are, but i can't do that, or else i'll be an even bigger disappointment. i want my friends and family to be proud of me. is that so wrong?

so let me tell you the extent of it. like i just said, i'm judgemental. i don't give people the light of day most of the time. i judge a book by its cover. this usually means that i'm disrespectful to the person that i'm talking to. the only people i show any respect to are slytherins and adults. i fit in most of the time, when i'm around slytherins, because of my attitude. but that's the point, as i mentioned before. one thing about me that isn't an act, is the fact that i'm untrusting. i don't trust people easily, because i'm afraid of getting hurt. you probably hear this a lot, but it's true about me as well. i have this wall, and it's built up to where i don't let anyone in. not even my closest friends get pass it sometimes. yes, i said sometimes. there are times where the wall comes down, but only slightly. other than that, it's basically pointless to try to get to me.

another reason why i'm afraid to get hurt? because i hurt easily, but i'm good at hiding it. i will never cry in front of someone. it makes me look weak, and that's the last thing i want. so yes, sometimes things get to the point where i cry because i'm hurt, but i cry when i'm alone. i hold it in until no one is around to witness it. sometimes i just hold it in altogether. i've heard that's a bad thing to do, and i agree, but i have to do it. i can't be caught with a weakness. the only thing, is holding it tends to make me bust. meaning the simplest thing can set me off and i'll snap at someone. does that mean i have a short temper? yeah. even if it didn't i would have to say that i do anyway. i can be really nasty toward people.

i am loyal though. i mean obviously you can tell i am. if i weren't, i wouldn't hide who i really am to get the approval of the people i truly care about. i would do anything for my family and friends. what few friends i have of course. maybe one day i'll throw out my act, but for now, i'm not changing. i can't. i have to be this side of me, instead of the one people, other than those i'm trying to impress, prefer me to be. i don't know. let's just move on."

HISTORY --

"alright, so this is the last thing i have to do? fine. so as you already know my father is vincent crabbe, but you don't know my mother yet. my father married millicent bulstrode. it's a wonder how their children came out good looking. no offense to them. i love my parents. but it's true. okay moving on. i have an older brother who is in his seventh year. so, he's only a year older than myself. i also have a sister the same age as me. no, we are not twins. we were just born nine months apart from each other. our parents really got busy. and then there is my younger sister, who is two years younger than me. we were all pretty much spoiled our whole life, though i didn't take it to heart. i really didn't ask for much when i was younger. oh, there it is again. i need to stop revealing myself to you.

growing up, there was the seven of us. scorpius, draco malfoy's son. all four of us crabbe children. and the two goyle children. we were the closest of friends, because of our parents. my father is still close with the malfoys and the goyles. so, in turn they put us all together. a lot of the time the boys did their own thing as the girls did their, but we would get together from time to time. it was pretty great. we're still friends now. surprisingly i haven't been removed from the group. let me tell you why.

so, like every other child, i recieved my hogwarts acceptance letter at age eleven. i was really excited to go to hogwarts. it was going to be a new experience you know? plus my brother was already there and i would be going with a couple of my best friends, including my sister. i was horrified when i was sorted though. everyone could tell and the looks on their faces. god. i remember each and every look. they couldn't believe it. and i'm the only one! even my younger sister became a slytherin. so, i took on the role of a bitch. i had to prove to them that i was just like them. i was a slytherin at heart, even though that wasn't true. it took me a bit to actually send a letter to my parents about the fact i was sorted into gryffindor. i know they were disappointed. i could tell, just by the letter, even if they said it was alright.

anyway, life went on. i'm in my sixth year now and i'm still keeping up the act. sometimes i feel bad though. you know, hurting people's feelings. but i can't slip up. i can't even imagine what will happen if i just start being who i really am. i would never hear the end of it. people would treat me differently and, i'm not ready for that. i'm not ready to be at the bottom of the food chain. so, for now, i'm just going to be, this. i think i'm done. i don't want to talk to you anymore."

BEHIND THE MASK --
alias; kate
experience; four years
character house; gryffindor
character year; sixth
character side; wicked wands
other chars; arabella marie longbottom