POLAKOV, emilya chloie

[EMILYA CHLOIE POLAKOV]

emilya chloie polakov
"I'LL STOP THE WHOLE WORLD FROM
TURNING INTO A MONSTER."

HOW ABOUT I GIVE YOU SOME ANSWERS? HOW ABOUT I TELL YOU ABOUT MYSELF?

OR I COULD NOT.

OR I COULD.

I DUNNO.

OKAY, WELL, I GUESS IF IT'S MANDATORY - I'LL DO IT.

THE NAME'S EMILYA CHLOIE POLAKOV - QUITE ORIGINAL, ISN'T IT? YEA, MY PARENTS WERE LIKE THAT. SEE, MY HISTORY ISN'T ALL THAT GRAND OR INTERESTING. HOWEVER, MY PARENTS SEEMED TO HAVE HAVE INTERESTING PASTS. I GUESS I CAN TALK ABOUT THEM.

MY FATHER, THE HANDSOME, SUAVE, AND APPARENTLY EVIL, KRISTOPHE POLAKOV,
WAS BORN AND RAISED IN BULGARIA TO TWO WONDERFULLY RICH, PUREBLOODED WIZARDS. HE GREW UP WITH NOTHING BUT THE BEST, BOTH IN CLOTHES AND VALUES. HIS FAMILY WAS BEST KNOWN FOR THEIR INTEREST AND INVOLVEMENT WITH THE DARK LORD HIMSELF DURING THE FIRST WIZARDING WAR, DESPITE THEM LIVING IN BLUGARIA. THEY WERE INVOLVED IN SCOUTING OUT PLACES OF HIDING IN BULGARIA, JUST IN CASE HE ENDED UP DECIDING TO MAKE RESIDENCE THERE. INSTEAD, HE SUFFERED DOWNFALL, OF COURSE. MY FATHER, THOUGH, STILL HELD ONTO THE FACT THAT THE DARK LORD WOULD RETURN - AND HE DID. AND WHEN HE DID, MY FATHER FOLLOWED HIM DESPERATELY, ALL THE WAY. HE WAS COMPLETELY INFATUATED WITH THE IDEA OF A PUREBLOOD WORLD. AT THAT POINT, THOUGH, HE'D MET MY MOTHER - IN WHICH CASE WAS THE BETTER POINT FOR ME. REASON? I COULD ACTUALLY COME TO LIFE.

THAT'S ABOUT THE ONLY THING MY DAD'S GOOD FOR.

MY MOTHER, ON THE OTHER HAND, IS SPECTACULARLY GIFTED. SHE WAS A HALFBLOOD WITCH, ALSO BORN IN BULGARIA. ADRIANNA NEMKOVA, A BEAUTIFUL WOMAN WITH PALE SKIN AND LONG DARK LOCKS, TENDED TO VENTURE ON HER OWN IN THE WIZARDING WORLD OF BULGARIA. IN HER EARLY DAYS, SHE CAME ACROSS THE PATH OF KRISTOPHE POLAKOV. THEY BUMPED INTO EACH OTHER, THOUGH IT HARDLY MEANT ANYTHING. MY FATHER SNICKERED AT HER, DESPITE CHECKING HER OUT THOROUGHLY, THEN WENT ON HIS WAY. MY MOTHER WAS LEFT QUITE ANGERED BY THE MANNER IN WHICH HE STRODE, BUT NONETHELESS GOT OVER IT.

HOWEVER, THESE TWO LOVELY (OR NOT SO MUCH) PEOPLE MET ONCE MORE - AT DURMSTRANG. SEE, THEY BOTH WERE THE SAME AGE, AND AS SUCH BOTH ARRIVED TO THE SCHOOL AT THE SAME TIME. DURMSTRANG HAD SINCE JUST LET GIRLS INTO THEIR SCHOOL, AND MY MOTHER WAS ONE OF THE FIRST TO EXPERIENCE IT. SHE WANTED TO BE EDUCATED TOO, NOT BE A SIMPLE HOUSE WIFE. SHE WANTED TO BE MAKE GOOD OF HERSELF. THEN, SHE GOT TO KNOW MY FATHER. KRISTOPHE WOOED HER OVER THE YEARS AND EVENTUALLY FELL FOR HER, THOUGH HE DIDN'T KNOW HER PAST. HE ASSUMED SHE WAS A PUREBLOODED WITCH, WHICH SHE WAS NOT. HE FOUND OUT QUICKLY, THOUGH, WHEN MY MOTHER INVITED HIM TO HER HOUSE ONE SUMMER. UPON MEETING MY GRANDFATHER, NOTING HIS MUGGLE WAYS, KRISTOPHE WAS DISGUSTED. HE PLAYED OFF THE REST OF THE DAY, THEN NEVER TALKED TO MY MOTHER AGAIN. THAT IS, UNTIL MY MOTHER LEARNED SHE WAS PREGNANT WITH HIS CHILD.

IN THE BEGINNING, MY FATHER WANTED TO SEE MY. MOTHER, THOUGH, REFUSED. ADRIANNA ADMITTED THAT SHE KNEW HE BROKE IT OFF BECAUSE SHE WAS A HALFBLOOD, AND RUBBED IT IN HIS FACE THAT I'D BE ONE, TOO. MY DAD WANTED DESPERATELY TO SEE ME AT THAT POINT. WITH PERMISSION FROM HIS PARENTS TO DO SO, AND HERS, MY PARENTS BECAME INVOLVED IN AN ARRANGED MARRIAGE. MY MOTHER ONLY WANTED TO PLEASE HER PARENTS, SO SHE DID WHAT SHE WAS TOLD. THE ONLY REASON THEY WANTED MY MOTHER TO BE WITH MY FATHER WAS BECAUSE JUST THAT - HE WAS MY FATHER. THEY WERE MY PARENTS. MY GRANDPARENTS BELIEVED IN CHILDREN HAVING BOTH PARENTS, AND SO THEY TRIED TO ENFORCE THAT UPON MY MOTHER.

SO MY PARENTS MARRIED EACH OTHER THREE MONTHS LATER, AND FOUR MONTHS AFTER THAT I CAME ABOUT. I WAS BORN ON JULY 6, ON A RAINY AFTERNOON. MY PARENTS WERE EQUALLY THRILLED ABOUT MY BIRTH. HOWEVER, UPON GOING HOME, THEY FOUGHT OVER ME CONSTANTLY. THEY WERE ONLY TOGETHER BECAUSE OF ME, WHICH MEANT ALL THEY WANTED WAS ME. I BECAME STUCK IN THE MIDDLE. AT THAT POINT, LIFE BECAME MUCH HARDER FOR ME THAN I HAD EVER EXPECTED. I GREW UP WITH CONSTANT FIGHTING. MY PARENTS DIDN'T EVEN EAT TOGETHER. WE NEVER ATE TOGETHER AS A FAMILY. IT WAS EITHER MY MOTHER COOKED AND WE ATE TOGETHER, OR MY FATHER COOKED AND WE ATE TOGETHER. THE OTHER ALWAYS LEFT. IT WAS A SAD SITUATION.

THAT WAS, HOWEVER, UNTIL ONE BIG FIGHT MY PARENTS HAD. THEY WERE SCREAMING EXTREMELY LOUDLY, AND AT THAT POINT I WAS SEVEN. I TRIED COVERING MY EARS BUT IT DIDN'T HELP. I CRIED AND CRIED, AND EVENTUALLY LEFT THE HOUSE. I WENT TO OUR NEIGHBORS AND TOLD THEM WHAT WAS GOING ON, AND FROM THAT POINT THE BULGARIAN OFFICIALS CAME AND TOOK ME AWAY.

BECAUSE MY FATHER WAS INVOLVED WITH DEATH EATERS AT THE TIME, AURORS WERE AFRAID THAT HE WOULD COME AFTER ME AND DESTROY PEOPLE THAT GOT IN HIS WAY. BECAUSE OF THIS, THEY SENT ME TO ENGLAND. I GREW UP IN AN ORPHANAGE WITH OTHER WIZARDING CHILDREN, AND HAD THE NORMAL LIFESTYLE OF AN ORPHAN. I BECAME ACCUSTOMED TO NOT GETTING NEW THINGS, OR THINGS I WANTED AT ALL. BUT AT THE AGE OF TEN, JUST BEFORE I WOULD GO OFF TO HOGWARTS, MY MOTHER CAME TO VISIT ME AT THE ORPHANGE.

SHE APOLOGIZED FOR EVERYTHING I'D GONE THROUGH, OF WHICH I ACCEPTED. HOWEVER, IT DIDN'T CHANGE ANYTHING. MY MOM TOLD ME THAT SHE MADE A BANK ACCOUNT AT GRINGOTT'S FOR ME, AND TO WITHDRAW MONEY THERE BEFORE I WENT TO SCHOOL SO I COULD GET MYSELF NEW THINGS. SHE SAID GOODBYE, AND I HAVEN'T SEEN HER SINCE. I NEVER SAW MY FATHER AGAIN, I'M NOT QUITE SURE WHERE HE WENT. I THINK HE FORGOT I EXISTED OR SOMETHING, I DUNNO.

THE FOLLOWING YEAR I WENT TO HOGWARTS AND WAS SORTED INTO RAVENCLAW QUITE QUICKLY. THE HAT SEEMED TO NOT DEBATE THAT, AND PRETTY SOON I FIGURED OUT WHY. I WAS QUITE INTELLIGENT, APPARENTLY. I'D NEVER BEEN GIVEN THE CHANCE TO PROVE MY SKILL IN MAGIC, BUT ONCE I HAD IT, I GAVE IT EVERYTHING I HAD. I PUT MY HEART INTO LEARNING, TO MAKING SURE I STOOD FOR SOMETHING. AFTER ALL I HAD BEEN THROUGH, I WANTED TO MAKE SURE THAT I COULD GET A PROPER EDUCATION. WITHOUT IT, I WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO GET A GOOD JOB, AND I WOULD END UP ON THE STREETS AFTER HOGWARTS - SINCE THE ORPHANAGE WAS SURE TO KICK ME OUT AT SEVENTEEN.

I NEVER BELIEVED IN FAIRYTALES, SINCE I NEVER KNEW HAPPINESS. ALL I'D EVER SEEN IS HEARTACHE AND PAIN. SO WHEN I GOT TO HOGWARTS AND NOTICED THERE WERE SOME DECENT PEOPLE, I THOUGHT THAT MAYBE I'D BE ABLE TO BE A DECENT PERSON, MYSELF. HOWEVER, IT'S ALWAYS BEEN HARD FOR ME TO MAKE FRIENDS. I CAN BE ENERGETIC AND FUN, BUT I HAVE TO FORCE MYSELF TO TRUST PEOPLE SO THEY CAN SEE THAT SIDE OF ME. BECAUSE OF MY PAST, I'VE ALWAYS BEEN A BIT OF A LONER. IT WAS EXPECTED OF ME TO BE INDEPENDENT AND DO THINGS FOR MY OWN SELF-INTEREST.

SINCE FIRST YEAR, I'VE GROWN A LOT AS A PERSON. I'M STILL A LONER OF SORTS, BUT I'VE GAINED A FEW FRIENDSHIPS. I' HAVE ALSO COME A LONG WAY MAGICALLY, MEANING I HAVE A GREAT SKILL AND TALENT FOR THINGS IN THE MAGICAL WORLD. I'M NOT SURE WHAT I WANT TO DO WITH MY LIFE YET, BUT I HAVE CONSIDERED BECOMING AN OBLIVIATOR FOR THE MINISTRY OF MAGIC.

ASIDE FROM THAT, I TAKE NO SIDES. I HIGHLY DISLIKE VIOLENCE, SO GOOD AND EVIL DON'T SUIT ME. HOWEVER, I'M ALSO NOT THAT BRAVE. I'M NOT SURE IF I'D BE ABLE TO STAND UP FOR MYSELF AND OTHERS IN AN ACTUAL FIGHT. I'M GOOD AT DUELING, BUT I DON'T KNOW IF I'M THAT GOOD. STILL, IF I HAD TO CHOOSE A SIDE, I'D BE ON THE SIDE OF THE PAPER ANGELS. THEY OBVIOUSLY ARE LOOKING OUT FOR PEOPLE'S BEST INTERESTS, SOMETHING I WISH I COULD DO.

I THINK I'M JUST TOO BROKEN TO BE ANYTHING OF TRUE HAPPINESS AND SUCCESS. YOU CAN TRY AND HEAL ME, BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW MANY POTIONS OR SPELLS CAN BE CREATED TO MEND MY BROKEN AND LONELY HEART.

OH, DID I MENTION I HAVE A LITTLE BROTHER? YEA, APPARENTLY, MY MOTHER AND FATHER ATTEMPTED TO BECOME CLOSER AND HAPPIER, SO THAT THEY'D BE ABLE TO SEE ME AGAIN. INSTEAD, THEY ENDED UP WITH ANOTHER KID THAT TORE THEM EVEN FURTHER APART. MY BROTHER AND I HAVE MET BEFORE, COINCIDENTALLY AT HOGWARTS. HOWEVER, I'M NOT SURE HOW I FEEL ABOUT HIM. WE'RE NOT PARTICULARLY CLOSE, BUT I'D LIKE TO BE - IF I CAN LEARN TO BE TRUSTING AND LOVING ENOUGH. I'M KINDA SCARED HE WILL BE LIKE ME, ALONE. I DON'T THINK ANYONE SHOULD BE THIS ALONE.

alias; cem
experience; five years
character house; ravenclaw
character year; seventh
character side; neutral
other chars; victoire weasley

(just a side note, i hope it's alright i did this in first person! >.<)